Closed

This blog is officially closed.
Good BAI!

Good bye

So long Push Button Publishing.
You served me well as a platform for my thoughts.

Thanx to a few idiots who see fit to TALK ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK BY USING MY BLOG CONTENTS WHICH ARE NOT "REAL" ANYWAY BY MAKING UP MY BLOG CONTENT I have decided to close off Push Button Publishing.
The Internet is a public sphere but I see no fucking reason to spread rumours about me on a ridiculously scandalous scale and have people calling me to ask me if this really happened or that or what fucking ever.
Well screw you and hope you all simultaneously fall down a flight of stairs together.
Stop living in a high school dream and grow the fuck up thanx.

I'm sorry that I will be losing nice readers and commenters and as I said if you would like an invite to my new blog, please leave your email address in the comments section or email me directly at telliecoin@gmail.com

Fuck I hate it when people do stupid things to bolster up their own negative self images.

Stapling things up

Due to some a big torrent of fucking idiots who trample through my blog looking for dirt on me, I have closed the archive section.
This blog I will keep for light hearted this and thats, general opinions blar BLAR blah.
If you kindly proceed to my profile by clicking on it on the side bar, you can see that I have opened a new blog.
Invites only.
Reason being that I have had enough of stupid people who think my blog is their own personal rumour mill in which they can create as much jizz out of nothing.
Just because your life isn't great and mine is happy doesn't mean I feel like joining you in your personal hell hole.
Other than that there are still bits and pieces of shit and crap they have simply made up.
Like i've been there, done that, did him/her, my face bla fucking BLAH.
So fuck you and would you like to sit on my finger and have a fucking swivel as well.
Jesus Christ.
You know who you are, just because I have the decency to never mention names doesn't make you innocent.
Do you see me launching my own personal crusade and turning your blogs into MY stomping ground?
NO because i'm not like some of you who think it's alright to just make mountains out of molehills or in some cases conjure up molehills out of NOTHING.

If you would like an invite to my new blog, please feel free to email me at telliecoin@gmail.com or leave a comment.
I'm sorry I may not be able invite everyone mainly because some of the things I write may not be suitable for everyone to read.
I don't need publicity and i'd rather enjoy having a more intimate readership.
I'm happy that I have had invites to some personal blogs and would like to extend the same blogship to those who have invited me.
See you on the side of awesomeness kthanxbai.

My hair is wet, my head is spinning

I have a weird hangover.
I woke up with headspins, felt like throwing up, had a shower, now I feel hungry but i'm scared to eat incase I do start throwing up but yet I think food is exactly what I need right now.
OOOoooOoO and water!
Shall drink water while rushing my pert little ass over to the hairdressers.
I also woke up feeling like a big pile of stinky yuck like stale cigarettes and alcohol.
EEeeewww x 500.
I barely ate yesterday because I was juggling studying with a few other things.
But I drank like.. I think I just didn't stop from.. 8pm-1am.
OMFGGGG my brain is processing slower than an Atari right now.
Fucking sucks for me.
Normally my hangovers are just nausea for a while then back to normal life for me.
This one seems to be dragging on and on and on.

I guess I overdid the celebrating last night.
I found out that I have a job offer with a company that works with a director I really like.
No details yet because I feel like I might jinx it by being overly happy with it.
Only problem is this job is not in Australia, jeopardising my chances of obtaining a permanent residency.
Unless I somehow rope Mr.S in to say we have a de-facto relationship.
No.
I just will not put someone in that position unless I am very sure we're going to get married, which in that case we need to be engaged, ring on my finger and all.
Hmm and yesterday while I was thinking about the job I started mulling and fretting a little which probably caused me to drink more.
What's going to happen to me and Mr.S if I go?

He and I both have insomnia which results in us usually having to take in a few stimulants to keep us going through the day.
Usually it's sugar, sometimes caffeine.
But when we're off that energy boost he tends to get annoyed easily and is a tad nit picky.
I tend to be quiet and generally just plonk myself down anywhere and brood.
It's not good, either we both start sleeping normally which is very hard, or we wean ourselves off stimulants and ride out that being extremely tired for a while and see if we can sleep.
Worst comes to worst, m e d i c a t i o n.
We always say sorry but I can see this becoming a bigger problem in the future.
Not for us as a couple, but as individuals.
Sleep deprivation is seriously unhealthy and we're both still so young, what's going to happen to us next time?
Otherwise he takes good care of his health, eats health, exercises, takes vitamin supplements as well.
I err.. smoke.

I'm starting to wonder if my tell it as it is attitude is starting to rub him the wrong way.
Yesterday he said I complain about people calling me when I give my number out too easily.
I was giving my number to my friend because we are both going to the races today.
I only complained about this fucking idiot of a customer who keeps calling my personal number.
How he got it is beyond me but what a friggin dumbass.
Otherwise I don't see why I should complain.
So I just opened my cookie chomper and said "Now i'm getting pissed off."
When he asked why I said because I was giving my number to my friend, I want my friend to have my number so we can meet up at the races.
Then he said yeah and if your friend starts calling you when you don't want to talk you'll get angry.
I basically just kept quiet.
I don't do the silent treatment thing often.
My arguments with Mr.S are unlike arguments with my exs where I fume and scream.
I kept quiet and thought about it.
Then I told him it's my choice to give out my number to my friends and if my friend calls I will talk to him.
Mr.S then explained his concept of men and women not being able to be friends and therefore he does not personally give his number out to members of the opposite sex.
Then again that's him and this is me.
I can't follow the way he lives and if I have to make a dozen mistakes to learn then so be it.

We've already had arguments.
I find these arguments more stressful than the type where I just scream and throw things.
As I said I listen, I think, I keep my temper under control, I talk to him again.
If I really am that angry, I just tell him I need some time to think and then i'll get back to him because I don't want to talk when i'm annoyed.
I'm trying really hard to have a proper grown up relationship but sometimes I really struggle to put it all together.
I know i'm immature sometimes to the point where calling me childish just may be a compliment.
But i'm trying really hard and I think he knows that.

Okay off to the races, gotta run and get my hair done and chug down more water.

Work photos

It's been a while since I put up work photos.
Anyways here are some photos from the last job I did.
Did the make up y0!

Making the actor look about 7 years older, gaunt and carrying a massive sleep debt from the 80's.
Yes the contouring and shadowing is almost too sharp in the photo but it turned out beautiful on camera.

Killing one of the actors.
DIE DIE DIE!!

EXTREMELY good actress.
We all did a standing ovation during one of her scenes.
Was way too awesome!
Here I just did some basic makeup, not too bad no? :D

I had to punch her.
No seriously I did because she just wouldn't sit still while I was putting her makeup on.
I KID I KID.
I made the bruise on her face.
You like?
Halloween ideas a'sparkin anyone?

BTW all makeup done with *gasp* drugstore makeup.
Yes I did not use any MAC products although they are greatly favoured by most makeup artists.
Not because I shun MAC but drugstore brands somehow did the perfect job for this shoot.
Or it could just be my mad skillz.

Hope you guys enjoyed that.
Oh Melbourne people please pick up a copy of MX on Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
I did the makeup for a spread there so do have a look. :)
Not sure which day it'll come out though, but it will definitely be over the weekend.

I'm starting to wonder if I should start looking into making my part time job as a makeup artist a full time one.
I enjoy the challenges that come with the job and I don't mind working like hell.
It's hard though, so it just makes me think that I don't have enough passion for it.

Still on hiatus

Still busy with work and studies.
Except now I have an eye infection on top of that.
That's why i'm rocking the glasses.
That pic is me on one of my days off, I spend my days off running errands usually.
You like mah errand running outfit?
Cuz I DO. I DO.
And yes I have lost weight since I started working.
What is it with me?
Every single time I work I lose a crapload of weight.
Considering I will be taking this on pretty much as a fulltime thing after exams i'm going to whittle myself down into pre pubescent proportions.
N O T S E X Y.



You still make me cry even after all this time.
That's what I don't miss about you.
Don't tell me you miss me or care when you break my heart again and again.

Jazz performance coming up.
I think i've chosen the song I want to sing.

Hiatus

Sorry everyone i'll be on a hiatus.
Nothing bad has happened but I am swamped with work and exam studying for the meantime.
I've started a new job and will be juggling film production work and this job at the end of the year.
This job is a means to making ends meet and I wont give up my passion for film production work, so i'll make it all fit into my schedule somehow. :)
If you need to reach me feel free to email me: telliecoin@gmail.com
I may take a while to reply but please don't think that i've abandoned you.

Before I leave I wanted to say something.
Don't air your dirty laundry in public please if you heard something from someone who heard it from someone.
Taking rumours based on chinese whispers is ridiculous which in turn has made me just go huh?
If you were looking for a reply well I wont continue adding to the flames.
If I did want to say something I would say that you've been extremely rude and if it really did bother you, you would've spoken to me personally on something I don't even know, actually you wouldn't just need to speak to me personally, you'd probably have to outline everything for me, because I don't know wtf is going on.
My friend has asked me about it and I just sat there confused, so hmm?
HOWEVER, telling people that me and my significant other "are fucking" sounds really rude and bitter.
Seeing a couple people usually go "they're going out/dating" but "fucking"?
a n g r y ?
If I wanted to base everything on chinese whispers I would in turn ask you why are you adding us as friends on facebook or attending a gathering where you were invited when apparently the host is a "pretentious twat just like the rest of them".
Am I the only one who's confused here or is something seriously wrong with the whole picture?
If you misunderstood something I said then I can't do much, but then don't run around shooting your mouth off in public.
I want to write a disclaimer now.
I DID NOT PERSONALLY MAKE/HELP TO MAKE OPENSOURCEFOOD.COM.
This was made by someone I know and I joined ages ago when it was still fairly new and currently I own a pro-account because I have submitted enough recipes.
Where people got the impression that I helped design or make it is beyond me.
I mentioned that I liked the old design and liked the newer one even more, yes or that I gave input when asked about how I liked it, yes.
Anything else?
I never said I did any of those things so don't call me a bullshit artist when you weren't listening to what I said.
If you don't even know what you're saying then why are you saying it?
Btw I have a Malaysian accent because guess what I AM FROM MALAYSIA.
Jesus Christ.
Now I am going to close this matter once and for all.
People whom I am nice to who in turn bad mouth me behind my back are really no longer worth my time.
Can I just be a little bit hurt by these accusations and things when I thought I was nice and friendly?

Okay gotta go to uni for a test now. :)
BYEEE PEEPS.
I still love you all.
MWA MWA MWA.

?huh?

Do you know why you hate everyone?
Because you think that you're better than everyone and you never stop judging people.
And in turn they come to dislike you then you wonder why.
You twist people's words around and put them down all the time.
People talk on a larger scale than you think and now it's come to a time where all of us know what kind of person you really are.
Sorry, but we can't all stand around and feed your self-pity party bonfire.
Posting things publicly to draw attention to yourself is redundant when in reality the people you involved by saying such things are just plain confused.
Even we don't know what accusations we supposedly put onto you and being so non-specific you have targeted every attached female in attendance.
I wonder what we did to offend you anyway, I thought we were nice and we were friendly and we all got along well.
Guess not.
We didn't ask you to come so that we could be stage hands for your own personal play, we did because we were inviting a group of people connected through the same thing and since you were, we all thought you might enjoy it.
Did you think that we made a random guest list without first consulting everyone else on who to invite?
Everyone wanted you to come and enjoy yourself.
Looks like something backfired somewhere somehow.
Now we all feel like idiots because we meant well.
All I can say is, I think in a gathering no one is supposed to try to placate another person, we should all be relaxed and happy.
We're all on equal ground in something like this.
Why you had to go make a big deal out of nothing is beyond me but i'm not the only person you've been rude to.
What about the rest of us?
We did nothing wrong so why are being shot.

My Friday Night

Just this picture first lol while I sort them out. :)

Nyeh bla bla crap shit

Sorry i've been missing for a while.
Have a few things i'm just gunna throw down then skedaddle again.

A lot of asian girls get stereotyped for dating out of their own race.
Date a white dood?
You must be trying to get a green card/a snob who thinks she's too good for asian men/status symbol etc etc etc bullcrap bla bla
I go walking around with mr.s and I get looks from asian girls and guys, some of them are just checking me out *ahem* some are checking him out some of them just give me this "YOU SELL OUT" look.
In the first place mr.s isn't white he's half white/half asian, also who I date is my choice.
I used to like my hong kong/taiwan boys very much.
In fact, i've only dated hongky's since i've come to Australia.
Why? because I have a preference for funky (some say ah beng) chinese boys who can still throw chinese words around with me.
Actually.. I usually will ONLY date asian men because I find that I have a lot more in common with them.
As much as I like running around going nuts, I also can brew herbal medicines, make traditional soups and dishes and whatever it is that constitutes being a subservient asian wife.
I would still rather eat rice over pasta any day.
People say they aren't racist but the moment an interracial looking couple steps out they still get derisive looks.
Chillax mah chiggasss!

I watched this movie and hated it so much mr.s had to spend an hour or two coaxing me out of the little slump I had.
I wasn't sulking, I just really didn't like the movie because it portrayed that everyone is basically disposable and replaceable.
Every guy throws their woman away no matter how perfect to chase other women and women throw their men away to chase other men.
It upset me, it frustrated me and it made me lose even more faith in humanity. not that I had much to begin with anyway.

In the movie one of the characters said "How you feel about someone only matters to YOU. It doesn't matter to them, what you show them about the way you feel matters to them."
How true.
Why should I give a crap about how people supposedly feel about me when all they smackdown is crap and more crap.
That movie made me think about my ex, who basically left me to die, not figuratively, LITERALLY, then comes back to say no no he cares bla bla.
I might as well drop and anvil on your kidneys, crush them then say oopps sorry I still care here have a cookie from me.
R E D U N D A N T.
I could bake you a mountain of cookies, it does not cancel out me deliberately dropping an anvil on your kidneys and causing you to lose your ability to piss forever.
Then the other character said that he was in love with his ex and he would do whatever it took to get her back.
Dropping the college girl he left his girlfriend for, (not to mention that the other girl he fucked was like just legal or some crap, apparently in the italian version of this movie, the girl is 16. EWW much?) he waits and waits on her doorstep for her to talk to him.
So in essence he left this girl he liked to just wait for the girl he loves.
Love should come before like no?
Doesn't matter that you have to sacrifice someone you like for the person you say you really love.
He didn't have to have her back but being with noone was BETTER THAN being with someone he just LIKED as compared to the love of his life.
He just wanted a chance to apologise and to tell her that he still loves her.
This movie hit a little too close to home and made me realise I fucking wasted SO MUCH TIME.
If you love someone, it only matters to YOU how YOU feel.
NOONE ELSE GIVES A FUCK because actions speak louder than words.

On another note.
WTF is up with people acting like fobs recently?
I mean you're an american/european/australian/insert non-asian country here born asian and you're putting on fobbiness?
I'm a fob and even I feel insulted.
Don't overdo it, so unbecoming.
Exploring culture and pretending you're fob is definitely two VERY different things.

Why am I so angry lately.
Grr.

That scarf headband top

Hello!
Okay would you guys like a picture tutorial on how to make that top or a video?
Only problem with video is I have null vid editing skills so it might have to be in real time.
OR I could get mr.s to teach me since i'm lazy as bleahh!!
ANYWHOOOO so video or picture tutorial?
I'll get it done over the weekend. :)

Btw my mom is out there fighting the good fight to save my butt.
I got my graduation dates mixed up and my dad bought tix to visit me for my graduation.
But err due to stupidity on my end it's the wrong date.
OOPSSSS #*&@(*^(*@&#(*@#(*^&@%$*&^@#
So my mom has gone to explain to him and save my ass.
So for today my phone is turned off and I am offline as far as everyone is concerned.
GO MOM!

Picture or Video?

Wearing mah clothesss

So another weekend has gone by and I do need to update on photos from my friend's bday on Friday as soon as the pics are up on Facebook cuz I don't own a camera.
WHY? I do not know why but anyway here are some camera phone pics to tide you guys over.

What I see the moment I open the blinds.
Construction ain't pretty but at least the rest of the city is alright.

What I wore under my trench to go for an evening stroll.
Sorry this was taken after my walk so the lighting is different to my trench on pics.

Yoga? NOOO!
Just bumming clothes I wear while I was gaming all weekend at Mr.S's place.
WoO HOOOO GAMING!
Nerd it up people!

Likey my wavey curls at the end I did for my friends bday?
I tried to get a good picture of it but ugh sorry a bit of a fail.
But trust me when I say it looked nice haha!
Did it with a hair straightener.
Pro? I do think so indeed. :P

Trench on and out and away for a walk before the sun goes.
Was a windy day yuck.

Don't we all need some Ass'd biscuits?
Random isn't it?
Took it at a IGA. :S

Mr.S bought me a little stuffed toy dog which is sitting on my head.
He also bought me an asthmatic cow.
I know ftw? LOL
But at least he's creative with the gifts.
Ashmatic cow.. mmm!

My shoes my best friend chose for me.
I have to say he has pretty good taste. :P
Can you guys see the blurry swimming pool?

Ghetto toast.
YUM!

What I wore to my friend's birthday on Friday.
Like the top?
I made it myself. :D

More hair shots.
I did a green smokey eye for the night.
My camera phone of suckiness did not capture it's niceness. hmph.

See :D I made the top myself.
Tied a scarf to a leather headband I used to hold the scarf up, see the knot near my neck where the leather band is?
Then tied the back of the scarf so it became a top.
It's not so much creativity as it is brokeness, i'm too broke to shop so I make my own clothes sometimes.

THERE YOU GO.
A shot of my face for the person who said I always hide behind my phone.
My makeup was half done and the light washed it out anyway bleah!

Photo's of my Friday night coming soon!

Independent women

Why are all these random ranty posts coming out?

Are you an independent woman?
*sings that destiny's child charlies angel's song*
Meaning can you support yourself financially and care for your well being?
You have a job or two or three or a million who knows but the bottom line is you can organise your life so that you can viably support yourself within certain boundaries, if you earn 2k a year and buy yourself a Ferrari upholstered with LV leather err you might be over spending but then again who am I to judge.
I don't have a problem with women being independent in fact I applaud it, and not in a bra burning feministic we all should have equal rights bla bla bla chop off men's balls kind of way.
ANYWHOOO even though we might be happy doing our own thing bla bla bla we stil get flak.

I partially pay for everything I do: education, rent, allowance, plane tickets, shopping obviously I cannot fully support myself because I have not worked enough to have that kind of money and I don't want to uproot all my savings, everyone needs a little something for a rainy day.
Plus education fees are insane and I do not qualify for a student loan as an international student.
However, the money I do earn I do make an effort to help my parents out, even though they really don't need it but I like to do my part plus it makes my grandma's happy when I take them to dinners or give them "ang pow", "hong bao", "lai see", red pockets everytime I get a pay cheque.

Here's some flak I think is a bit ridiculous.

You're WASTING your money on things you DON'T NEED

If someone is earning their own money who are you to jump down their throats about what they spend it on?
In the end it's their prerogative, even if they go bankrupt or have a credit card debt up the wazoo who are you to scream at them.
Is it YOUR money?
NO. So gtfo their lives and let them spend on things that make them happy.
I have a friend who is doing well, she worked hard and has now opened her own shop as well as working for quite an esteemed financial investment firm.
Chanel is a favourite of hers ever since I knew her quite a few years ago, so once in awhile she goes and rewards herself with something she likes, even if it's a small thing which people might not notice like a pair of earrings from her favourite label, it makes her happy.
There are some people who stick their noses up at her and say she's a spoilt brat.
She made the money so she should be allowed to spend it.
Ridiculous.

You're ONLY financially stable because you're dating a RICH GUY

The thing is as much as people try to say that salary doesn't affect how you view your partner, it does tend to tilt things in the opposite direction when the woman is the main breadwinner in the house.
I've seen too many couples where that happens and the woman eventually does lose some respect for her partner.
Women deserve equal oppurtunites but we know that diversity is still pretty much a myth with that glass ceiling in place, for a woman to climb the corporate ladder she must be very efficient at what she does.
So if she does find a partner, why would he not be on par or even higher up than her?
Has anyone ever thought that MAYBE the guy isn't THAT THAT well off because it's balanced out by the fact that his partner is more or less at the same level?
Don't blast the girl till you know of her credentials.
Of course there are gold diggers but not every woman dating a guy whose well off is a gold digger or taking advantage of him.

I particularly HATE this stereotype because I used to pay for one of my ex's EVERYTHING.
I did not respect him and did not really give a crap.
Now that I am dating someone fairly well off I get shit like OOO so he's some big shot who can pay for your everything huh until it made me start to question why i'm seeing him.
I thought about it and NO, he doesn't spoil me with meaningless expensive gifts and a typically happy date like last week just resulted in us walking along a beach and pier and talking.
He knows that I can afford to buy my own things and I do budget, sometimes I go over and I am broke but I refuse to dig into my savings, it's MY fault and not his responsibility to carry my burdens.
If he buys groceries, I cook and etc etc.

If you make your own money usually it is highly unlikely that you will be impressed with some rich boy who lives on daddy's cash.
That really does not impress me, even more so when they think that their daddy's money can buy them respect.
Everyone who likes you for your money will never respect you and never really care.
True friends and true companionship cannot be bought and how dare anyone insinuate that all women can be easily bought over with trinkets.
Flashing your cash will not make an impression if it isn't yours.
Usually those who do make their own money, spend it on things they love not to impress the masses.
The worst part is some of those people will make fun of people who actually make a living.
I don't understand how earning your own moolah can be revolting in any sense.
Yeah sometimes it's hard going but working your way gives you the self-satisfaction and self-esteem that those with none try to buy.

YOU have NO social life

Independent doesn't mean it's all about making money to buy things and pay bills.
It's also about being able to balance out what you want in life and how you want to live it.
So you may be working 5 days a week but it doesn't mean that you completely drain yourself and just die from it.
Most corporate women have lots of fun as well.
I work and study and I still have time to see my friends without taxing my wallet too much.
Socialising doesn't always equate to LARGE amounts of time or splashing out a bucketful of cash.
It can mean anything, having a dinner with some friends or coffee.
Spending time with your family or significant other.
Quality versus quantity.
I believe that everyone has things they like to do on their off times.
Doesn't mean it has to fit societies norms but hey it's their life.
Btw with the internet and phones nowadays, it may seem a bit different but then again our whole social lives can be constructed in a totally intagible way, err not that socialising is a tangible act but you know what I mean.
I am quite happy to go days even weeks on end without really seeing some people but I do make an effort to talk to them on the phone or online.

to be continued...

p.s: do let me know what other sterotypes are heaped onto independent women and correct me if I did make any mistakes in this.

MOAR CLOTHES? FTW!

Did someone say MORE outfit posts??
YES YES YES!

This is how I take photos in my bathroom.
Standing on a fold up chair from Ikea.. ghetto innit!
White singlet, flowery kaftan from my mama's closet, THE black belt and BEST random find EVAR.

This bag has been sitting in this grocery shop.. I know FTW?? GROCERY SHOP?
It's been there for 2 years and it's the only bag there and i've always liked it and wanted it.
I moved away from that suburb so I haven't been back to that grocery shop for a long time, but I did last week and guess what??
THE BAG WAS STILL THERE.
All dusty and crappy and shiny still, I got it for.. *drumroll* 7 dollars.
NOT BAD AT ALL!
It's shiny patented leather with a gold chain (like Chanel no? just the chain not the patent leather)
Point is I like this bag and it has waited to come home with me.
*kisses bag*

Same outfit, same bag minus THE black belt.

When i'm prepping it up old skool.
Yellow cardigan from Blook, white camisole from MNG and GASP jeans.
GASP jeans are the shiznit.
Fo real.

What to wear when you're going to have a random walk around the city.
Effortlessly thrown together. :)
White camisole from MNG, white chiffon camisole from The Island Shop to layer on top (you can't see it in the pic but it actually has pretty silvery beading down the middle), high waisted bloomer shorts from Top Shop, brown trench from a second hand store in Osaka, Japan, Charles and Keith quilted patented leather heels.

Spring is here so bring on the shorts!
However in the picture with the trench it was still winter, OH WELL WHAT-EVAH!
Black off the shoulder basic, THE black belt and high waisted bloomer shorts from Top Shop.
You realise that I tend to wear the same things a lot.
*shrug* i'm not much of a shopping kinda girl.
SAY WAAHHHTT??

What I wear when i'm off duty.
Tiny assed shorts which show my ass and oversized t-shirts borrowed from Mr.S's closet.
Btw what's with my head tilt :S.

There I have officially run out of outfits to post.
Till next time!!!!!

Introduce me to some of your hot friends!

Firstly, I am not a feminist.

Secondly, these are ourely my opinions and I do understand that at certain points I may actually be sticking my foot my in mouth.

Third, LIVE WITH IT.

As a girl do you get your guy friends asking you to introduce hot girl friends to them?

I FUCKING HATE THAT.

What do you think my friends are huh, show horses that should prance around infront of you so that you can pass judgement onto them?

Grow some balls and talk to girls ON YOUR OWN.

My friends are not little toys for you to crticise if they don't meet your expectations, plus since they really are THAT hot anyway why would they wanna go out with someone like YOU.

Yeah YOU who are probably insecure and/or sleazy.

On the other hand, there are nice guy friends whom I do invite out with my single girl friends because I find them to be nice decent guys and if they happen to hook up with any of my girl friends, by all means go ahead. :)

I WILL cock block you if I think you are a jerk and my girl friends think you're a jerk.

THE END.

I have no-STYLE

FINALLYYY the long awaited outfit posttttttt!!!!!

Actually these aren't really all outfits, some are random styles or things I have tried over the past year or so.

But we can all have a laugh on me yeah? YEAH!!

Back home in Malaysia.

My randomly put together outfit with my twisted top bun.

Humid weather fucks with my hair so I twisted it into a bun on my head.

Ain't it cute? Makes me look like i'm 12.

Tank Farm t-shirt from Myers, random belt, Kate Moss for Top Shop high waisted bloomer shorts and black tights.

Another outfit to be able to whistle through the heat in Malaysia.

Random skirt I turned into a dress stolen from my mom's cupboard and random belt from a second hand store in Japan.

DAMN I was skinny back then!

You likey my random Ulzzang face?

My little brother took it in mid-speech so excuse the expression.

But checl out my goldfish anime eyeballsss.

What to wear to uni when there's a pile of clothes on the floor.

Random long cardigan tied at the bottom and tucked into the same belt as the first outfit, tank farm t-shirt, random denim mini.

Shit the more I look at these photos the huger I feel.

I really did use to be a ody double for Nicole Richie.

*SOBS*

You guys have seen this already. :)

Mini black shift dress from Jipata, wide black belt (I wear this belt with so many things it's so versatile, it's already appeared 3 times so far), new super high heels from Charles and Keith.

Err yeah.. just bein an ass as usual.

Beanie from a second hand store in Japan, cardigan from Banana Republic and denim mini from Levis.

This is so old school I think this look was put together in 06.

I used to love rocking the oversized shirts plus tiny shorts look.

I sadly don't have a full outfit post but in this pic I had on an oversized Ralph Lauren shirt.

I love bright cheery colours on my nails. :)

When I can be bothered to do my nails.

Rockin the dreads.

Quite an epic fail actually.

LOLLOLL!

Duncha wish your kitchen lady was HOT like ME!

Duncha wish she had latex gloves like ME!

DUNCHHHAAAA

I'm obviously not a born lyricist.

Hope you girls enjoyed that!

LAZY

I tried to follow everyone who participated in my "Love you schlong time" tag game to say thank you and to say how touched I was that it has spread far and wide!

Unfortunately it has spread further than a gymasts legs so I may not be able to follow up on all the participants.

I would like to say thank you though girls for playing the game, taking the time to really map out details and for sharing the love!

It's been very interesting reading about everyone's relationships and in some cases they sound like Disney scripts hehe IN A GOOD WAY O-KAYY.

But seriously though, thank you for participating, it really warms the cocksles (typo but let's just keep that shall we?) of my heart! <3

Some of my girl friends have commented that I look SO MUCH BETTER now that I have gained weight.

Really?? REALLY?? :S:S:S:S:S:S

I honestly can't see this as an overly positive thing, I have thighs and a slight ponch now.

This cannot be happening!!

To further illustrate my point check out my outfit post!

Friskys very own tag game

SOOOO since everyone's gone on a tagging rampage these past few months and to apologise for not updating enough, I decided to make my very own TAG GAME.
Some of you are sick as hell of all these tag games but too bad you have to do mine.
*evil laughter from below the basement and so on so forth*
Here is "Love you schlong time" presented to you by yours truly, Fris-kayyy!!

Love you schlong time rules:
1. Pass this game on to 5 people
2. Write down 5-10 ways your relationship ticks and works for you!
3. Include a brief history of how you and your significant other met or a timeline, whichever you prefer :)
Best part? NO WORD LIMIT!

Don't you love this tag game already?
It'll give us ladies a chance to read up and learn from other girls about how their relationship works!
Plus i'm personally always curious to know how people keep their relationships going especially those of you who are married or engaged or are in long term relationships.
I mean I know some of you have mentioned it in your blogs and all but I would love to hear it again and so will the other girls. :)

I'll start!

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Brief history

As most of you already know the main man in my life is Mr.Saturday, I just call him that because our first date was on a Saturday. Simple enough yeah? :) I met him through some friends last year but I was in a relationship then but we kept in touch through occasional msges and such. Invited him to xmas and nye events to hang out with some of my friends and met some of his as well. A few months after my break up with the ex, he asked me out. At this point I was still wondering if it was a date or just a casual hang out. Turns out it was a date after all! Since then we've hung out every weekend and the occasional weekday. It's still VERY early days so i'm not sure if I can really say that our relationship is working because ho-hum it's still that happy happy honeymoon period. For all you know in another month I will be trying to kill him. He's going to Europe for a few months soon and I will miss him very much but he will be back i'm sure! *fingers crossed*

10 things that seem to be working for me *i think*

1. First and foremost I have a lot of respect for him. I cannot explain what I mean clearly because in all honesty it is VERY hard to earn my respect, i'm not being vain but I am very young still and I have managed to do quite a fair bit for myself, I ain't no child prodigy but i'm not behind in the rat race. I can look up to him and value his opinions.
2. I actually listen and think about what he says. I've said it before but this is probably the first time i'm happy not to go bla bla bla all the time and listen. We have discussions, I listen, I think about what he says and then I come back to him with my opinion. Since I actually took the time to sit and process it, there so far has been no spite, just talks.
3. He holds me in high regard. How do I know this? I asked him once why he's going out with me when he could go out with anyone else. (I was asking because I am a tad insecure) His reply was why was I going out with him when he honestly thinks I could go out with anyone else. In that instant I felt that I have been undervaluing myself in the dating game, here is someone I respect who thinks well of me. Mutual respect I guess, as cliche as it sounds.
4. Space and time. We do our own things in our own time, i'm not talking about personal projects, just necessary things like studies and work etc but we make the effort to spend time together, to think of things to do that don't always involve the bedroom *ahem*. I guess what I mean is we don't hmm how do you say it.. we give each other the time to pursue our own goals because we know it's important to us individually. That's why i'm no longer worried about his Europe trip, because I would actually love to give him that space and time to work on hs personal projects.
   
5. Talk talk talk talkinggg. We talk almost 80% of the time we spend together. We have lots to talk about, from ridiculous nonsense to serious matters. Communication is key!
6. Comfortable silence. OKAY MAYBE I JUST DUG MY OWN GRAVE. But you know what I mean. When you don't feel a need to fill up the silence with pointless chit chat. I'm quite happy to have a cuddle and look out the window for awhile.. it's calming.
7. Similiar interests. Do I need to say more? However he's VERY into his music and i'm just so-so with the music, our tastes are different in that aspect but i'm quite liking some of the songs he plays for me, not all though. We both read a lot, write, into the arts (again him more than me I think), sing, compose (him more than me, mine are just bits and pieces of random things) and most importantly FOOD. Love good food. YUM YUM YUM!!!

Okay can't think of any more cuz the relationship is still very young.

I TAG:
XPPINKXX
FUZKITTIE
(G)EZEBEL
ALIENMAN
LADY L

What the flying fuckery

Dear Ahmad Ismail,

FUCK YOU.
kthanxbai

Regards,
ME

P.S: How dare you say something as callous as calling the chinese citizens of Malaysia "squatters".

P.S.S: Why wont you apologise buddy?


Promoting Malaysia as a country which is a melting pot of cultures is BULLFUCKINGSHIT.
UMNO is indeed a racist party if there ever was one.
If any of you are wondering what i'm talking about click here.
As long as UMNO continue to to exercise their power by blatantly flaunting corruption there is truly NO HOPE for Malaysia.
As much as I love my country and know that no government will ever be able to completely fulfill every single need and want of the, citizens there have been too many events which have come to pass that make me well and truly disappointed.
A new party was elected in hope that things would improve, although there will be no overnight sensations, why are things seemingly worse?
Is everything going to come tumbling down soon?
Of course everywhere we go we are confronted by racism, but within our own country when we are supposedly living in harmony and shitting out rainbows and pissing out sunshine?
I may get shot down for writing all of this but you know and I know that i'm not the only one standing up for our democratic rights not just as Malaysians but as human beings.
To put it simply, when was the last time UMNO and/or BN made an informed decision which actually bettered and included every single one of their citizens instead of championing a singuar race?
If you know please do tell me because I can't remember the last time I was well and truly proud of my home country.

Hear me now.
For as long as I cannot feel safe and secure within my home country or be proud of being Malaysian.
The likes of me will NOT return to work in Malaysia.
NEVER.
Not till I can stand tall and proudly call myself Malaysian and come home knowing that my well being because i'm a rakyat Malaysia will come first.
At the moment it feels like there is no hope.

I LUVVY LUV LUV UR BLOG LOOONGG SCHLONG TIME!

Thank you PINKY PINK for awarding me the "I Love Your Blog" award and so sorry I haven't been posting much.
HOWEVAHHH I will do this post just for you.
*nods head*

I Love Your Blog Rules:
1. Pass this award on to 7 people.
2. Answer the following questions using only one word.

(it's not going to happen, I haven't posted in fkin forever and you expect me to give one word answers?? ptooie. i'm even going to make it colourful)

Q&A:
1. Where is your cell phone? next to my bag of chips
2. Where is your significant other? probably at work.. lying through his teeth to the customers about tannin and I actually have no freakin idea what he does in the office, for all I know he's adding to his pr0n collection or tickling himself with feathers.. NO.
3. Your hair color? dark olive brown thanx to Masa my beloved hairstylist.. MUCH LOVE *peace sign*
4. Your mother? is probably playing cubix at home or rearranging her bookcase or eating or sleeping or meditating or OH WAITT this is an ethnicity question! she's portugese/chinese
5. Your father? is prolly chilling with the mom.. but in anycase he's thai-chinese/portugesedutchsomething
6. Your favorite thing? myself.
7. Your dream last night? last night? err can't remember but I can tell you this odd dream I had over the weekend where for some reason there were 2 other people in bed with mr.s and I and all sorts of weird CONVERSATIONS took place. what were you thinking? But seriously though it was us lying in bed with 2 other random people having a chat about nothing in particular. Yeah.. i'm not built for kinkiness
8. Your dream/goal? to make the world a better place... ok now that we've done the long term goals. I want to get a job in film production, hopefully as an art director to big blockbuster films if not to publish a book and to write for magazines
9. The room you're in? my bedroom is where my milkshake brings all the boys to the yard!!
10. Your hobby? reading, the intarnets, watching movies, chilling, eating, cooking!
11. Your fear? becoming totally insignificant in any sense ooo and I guess the big cliche.. failure.
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? hopefully? with a fairly well paid job doing what I love to do best! oh and maybe married.. hehe OMG!
13. Where were you last night? bringing the boys to the yard..
14. What you're not? a pushover!
15. One of your wish-list items? my own little home
16. Where you grew up? Penang + Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia and I guess for the past 6 years.. Melbourne, Australia
17. The last thing you did? rubbed my toe against the arm rest of my chair..
18. What are you wearing? clothes.. because i've run outta black garbage bags. Love those, black, how slimming.
19. Your TV? is very small and craptastic
20. Your pet? which one? there are a bunch of pussies back home in Malaysia.. Kymi, Mew, The Orange Cat (I kid you not) and Cow
21. Your computer? TOSHIBA TECRA BIZNIZTCHES!!
22. Your mood? bleah.. naw kidding.. lazy and uninspired I guess that would be the best way to put it
23. Missing someone? I didn't know that someone was missing! GAWDDAMM
24. Your car? the same as xppinkxx :P but mine is back in Malaysia..:(
25. Something you're not wearing? retainers.. cuz i've never needed teeth adjustments.
26. Favorite store? GASP for their jeans which are always the right length and size. Thank god for GASP Jeans!
27. Your summer? is right around the corner and it's going to be EPIC.
28. Love someone? I love everyone. no not really. my family and friends = LOVE
29. Your favorite color? I like all colours.. seriously.. all colours can be put to some kind of wonderful use
30. When is the last time you laughed? I don't know cuz i'm always laughing about something or another
31. Last time you cried? over the weekend. not bawling cried just the littlest teeny trickle followed by a small sigh. let's not go into that..
32. Are you a bitch? hell yea
33. Favorite Position? ooo I can't decide.. the cincinati bow tie, the rusty trombone.. pretzel mania??!!
34. Favorite Past Time? passing time of course pfft
35. Are you a hater or a Lover? both of course.. if I love you expect the best if I hate you.. I wont hesitate to pour salt in your wound stick some nails into it then bandage it with a gasoline soaked rag and play flick the ciggarette at you
37. Are you genuine or fake? i'm the genuine fake article
38. Any Vices? nicotine
39. Pro Life or Wire Hanger? PRO CHOICE the end
40. McCAIN or OBAMA? urm.. *twirls hair*
41. Pro Plastic or Natural? i am fine with plastic surgery but if it ain't broken don't fix it
42. Dream Job? QUEEN OF THE UNIVERSE. I wont accept anything less.. oh but with a battalion of people to be responsible for the preceedings of the universe and another to protect me cuz i'm pretty sure they're gonna fuck up somewhere
43 where the last 11 questions PINK added on fun? err pinky? what question is this?

AND I TAG:

GEZEBEL
ALIENWOMAN
SUGARBUM
INCANDESCENT
YELLOWFEVERFIX
ISOBEL
WHOEVER ELSE WANTS TO DO THIS!

HOP TO IT LADIEZ!